Snakes On A Plane (Shit Happens)

my day
The plans for this weekend were cancelled =/. I'm kinda bummed out by it. C'est la vie or "snakes on plane" as some say (they really do, check this: Urban Dictionary). After watching tv for a while and doing absolutely nothing, I noticed I really was wasting time. I decided to clean my room (which was/is really needed, you can ask the stroopwafel to confirm this if u don't believe me), because I didn't feel like making my hw.

no, no, no, no emo (think black eyed peace song, nonono drama)
So, I could have got all emo again while cleaning my room. I decided not to. Mainly because I believe one person should not be able to get me down. It's not easy (or should not be) to get the spacemonkey down, she'll stand up and... and... draw. I feel like drawing, sketching or maybe even painting again. I'm probably gonna do that when I finished this post ~_~ =).
While cleaning my room I didn't put on my iTunes. No, it was way to emo I guess for the moment. Nope, I listened to.... Nelly Fortado ×_× XD. Well, Nelly Fortado ft. Timbaland actually. And Timberlake... I like the beat in those songs. You can dance like crazy on that stuff while cleaning your room. I probably looked like an idiot, but it was fun to do. It made me happy (how messed up am I??). But when I was cleaning my room and dancing like an idiot, I got the time to think.

stuff in my mind (a rather short version of it)
I have changed this year (or am changing as the schoolyear hasn't ended yet, neither has the changing). I got some new experiences, ideas and interests. For a few years now I'm intentionally watching my ego (my characteristics, future, past, choices, actions, all stuff like that). I got the feeling a sort of haze or fog is surrounding my brain, slowly vanishing and dissolving. I know a lot of the fog has already gone, but I'm sure there is still some fog left. I can not make this fog perish intentionally, it has to vanish on it's own.
With some fog gone now, it became clear to me stuff is often overrated or exaggerated by ppl who are just rather bored themselves and need/want attention. Everyone wants attention, another revelation I got this past year. Several things like that have become clear to me, but maybe even the most important one hit me right in the face. Somebody said to me what do you care about the others? Isn't it all about you? Your life, do what you want. I'm still grateful he said that to me.
Something I thought about this past week is guys (no not in a dirty way) and parties. Stroopwafel, I don't think you should go all crazy next MUN party, unless you want to. Do stuff when you want to. Take your time if you need time (this isn't only directed at la stroopwafel). I believe sweet sixteen and never been kissed is something bullshitious. Same goes for 16 and never been drunk. I don't feel I need to get drunk right now or anytime soon. I have no need to prove myself or anything. I believe peer pressure can be a very stupid thing. Do what you want, think about your actions before making them and be yourself. I think this goes for all thing in life, not only guys and parties.
Another thing I've been thinking about is, what makes me me? Who am I? (yeah I know Lapptop Wijsbegeerte ding). What makes me better or different from others? Am I satisfied with who I am? Can I change me? (honey seasons change, but people don't (8)) Do I really make the right choices in my life? Ain't I really messing up without noticing? Oh, the self-doubt ~_~.

happy easter everyone
Most of you know who know me pretty good, know how I feel about religion. Ofcourse I know easter is about the death and resurrection of Jesus (my parents raised me pretty good in dat opzicht, they told me the stories and let me free to believe what I wanted). What interests me is where did the paashaas hop into the story? Bellz (the emo-deviantart guy) has an his own version of it. Go check his easter deviation (do read the story in artist's comment).
But seriously, the easter bunny must have some story/origin. So I wiki-ed it. Like most christian feestdagen is easter on an older important date thingy (mn taalgebruik is egt geweldig XD :P) : the Vernal Equinox. Hares and eggs are symbols of the fertility the spring brings again (guess why hares and eggs =P). There is also a story about a chicken (a pretty bad chicken I guess ;) ) hiding her eggs. She got turned into a hare by the goddess Eostre (or Venus/ Aphrodite/ Astarte/ Freya/ Ostare), to go search for the eggs again. It seems quite logic (to me) we get 2 free days because the hare and eggs symbolize the returning fertility in springtime =P (I'm not trying to offend anybody, so don't be). My easter problem (omg, I don't get the easter-feeling this year :P. nah j/k) is solved. I might post an "alternative reason" for our free days from now on on my blog. It kinda interests me. Sad bunny pic. I couldn't do the emo rabbit, it was cutting wrists which is too emo for this post.



Ok this post is now long enough. props @ those who read the whole thing. I sure as hell couldnt with my 2 sec concentration =P. ( just reread it, t valt best mee)



Love,
-St. Freddie (XD j/k. no one is gonna call me that, aight?)


ps. the songs :
» hellogoodbye- call n return (say that your into me) . I just sorta started listening to them, they've got a couple of ok songs.
» Nelly Furtado + Timbaland + Timberlake - Give it to me. I like this song. It's danceable XD =P
» Nelly Furtado+ Timbaland - Promiscous. Told ya I listened to Nelly Furtado this afternoon.

pps. The Snow Patrol song "Chasing Cars" is so.. sad yet beautiful (or it kinda made me sad, it's not that sad at all). I didn't like it first, but when I saw it today at TMF... oh boy, I loved it.