I need some sleep

To quote wikipedia :
Sleep is the state of natural rest observed in most mammels, birds and fish. In humans, mammals and many other animals which have been studied, such as fish, birds, mice, ants and fruitflies, regular sleep is necessary for survival.

So, it's a fact (Wiki says it, it's a fact. cause we all believe what wiki says, don't we?) that we all need sleep. But how many sleep do we exactly need? An answer to that question could be "more than you're gettin atm". Which, seen my terrifically good english and high level of concentration these days, is sort of true.
Eigth to ten hours of sleep is what an adult needs to function well. It benefits alertness, memory and problem solving, overall health and reducing the risk of accidents (it might change your behavior when you're drunk as well, not really sure about that though).
Well, this weekend I got 16-17 / 72 hours of sleep. Three days, about 5 to 6 hours every night. Yeah, Paris was fun ^^.

Reasons why I didnt get a lot of sleep
Friday night we went to the LostProphets gig. They rocked. Don't be gay, man. Don't be gay! MEGA LOLZ!!!

Saturday we went to paris. Paris was hot (letterlijk =P). I think I liked the evening parts at the hotel the best. The whole guy-related-story-thing with the presents was pretty funny. I liked the game we played the 2nd evening. We should do it again sometime. Ofcourse, the drunken behavior of certain ppl was hilarious too. I have a couple of nice quotes which I'll put up here soon (not right now, im to tired to get them).

That's all folks, Im too tired to continue. I'll prob post the rest tomorrow.


lovez,
Stéphanie

*edit* I wrote this yesterday, I didn't post it though =s.

Monsters on friday the 13th

What's that coming over the hill,
Is it a monster? Is it a monster?

The Automatic was fun, even though I only recognized 3 songs + a cover they played. They sounded live better than they do on my pc. Like most bands do. I loved their version of Gold Digger.
Friday was the first time I've been to het Paard van Troje. It reminded me of Tivoli (Utrecht). It like the Paard better though. Meer (goede) bands zouden daar moeten spelen, de zaal is qua grootte goed genoeg in ieder geval.
The support act was.. dunno, didn't pay attention. They weren't interesting at the time apparently.
The Hague at night was fun (ok also scary at times). I wish I had a (good, not the digital pocket or phone) camera with me. Het zou een paar mooie foto's hebben opgeleverd.

I made an epic journey. Ik moest gisteren helemaal van de ene kant van Wassenaar naar de andere kant lopen =P. Op een gegeven moment, toen m'n wenkbrauwen ongeveer zo ver als mogelijk naar benede waren gegaan, dacht ik wat ben ik toch een aansteller. Of een verwend kind. Zo ver was het helemaal niet. Het was wel warm. Het was lekker weer en ik liep met gefrondsde (wtf is dat voor woord ?) wenkbrauwen. Wat ik trouwens beter niet had kunnen doen, het zorgde voor hoofdpijn. Maar, toen ik daar dus aan het lopen was dacht ik aan DEMUN. Het is nu al zo warm, hoe warm gaat het dan in Juni worden? Ik zou met dit weer een MUN conference egt slecht trekken. En bovendien moet ik voor demun gewoon naar school fietsen (tis slechts 5-10 min fietsen). Wordt leuk, fietsen in MUN stijl ×_× =P.

I want to draw my own comic. It will be a good way to improve my drawing skills (omg, that sounded so als een klasgenoot. it reminded me of Napoleon Dynamite too (de klasgenoot niet howr)). But I can't think of a good story/plot, which sucks. GOSH! (sorry, I couldn't resist). I'm not sure if I would want to use a story that's already written (dang, my english is bad. or actually mijn vermogen om me uit te drukken (in t engels)), because the comic will look like shit (in the beginning) because it's meant as a drawing skillz practice.. And I would'nt wanna fuck up the characters some one wrote. On the other hand, I'm no good with words at all, I couldn't write a good plotline (for all those who can : Lucky! (think napoleon dynamite voice)). mmmz

Ok , I've got some photo's. More on photobucket (still have to upload some as well.


"Freakin' idiots"


Het Paard Van Troje. "Sweet!"


"This is pretty much the worst photo ever made"
(nah actually it isnt, maar ik wou ff bij de quotes blijven.)


That's about it. More pictures on my photobucket.

Love,
Stéphanie

music: I was listening to a random Imeem playlist. The Matches happened play at the time I was (or am) choosing the music. I like the song, muzikaal vooral.
And Three Days Grace - Pain.

Today:

• I loved teh facebook conversation with Maxime. (inside joke)
• I noticed I need a new haircut, badly.
• I decided I like the combination of my black sweater and my pink bag.
• Got a song stuck in my head.
• Loved my phone (vanwege de mogelijkheid van txt messages)
• Wanted to go to Leiden (of any stad eigenlijk) om te shoppen. Tis veel te lekker weer voor school.
• I got surprised/scared when a random guy (i don't even know him =/) waved his hand in front of my face and said boo, walked on and didn't even laugh or something about this. Weird-o.
• I enjoyed the weather.
• I decided I like the term "rockertje" (no, nothing dirty. just as in likes rockmusic)
• I didn't feel like go to the hockeytraining.
• I'm looking foward to Lapptop tomorrow.
• Find it ridiculous that my Vans, Allstars and Eastpack break at the same time. What's next, my phone, my bike? =O
• Don't feel like making my dutch hw, but I can't complain about the extra tussenuur door uitgevallen ANW.
• Believe that this post is now long enough.

Yeah, another post. I can't help it. I write in a diary when I'm feeling down, I write on my blog when I'm happy (no one should ever read that diary Oo).
Ok, I'm off to make my dutch hw.

-SF

Walking down a memory lane
Yes, yet another post. The drawings => random stuff I doodled yesterday. Today, I had the weirdest thing. I had these sort of flashbacks all day long. In one of my last MSN conversations, the subject of songs connected to emotions was mentioned (yes this is sort of related to the most romantic song u ever heard from the last post XD). Most songs have memories or emotions (and because of that persons) linked to them. I don't really link songs to persons (except for one or two songs =S), I link them to area's of time.

This morning at breakfast the name Manigod (or however it's spelled) was mentioned. Manigod is a french little village I went to a couple of times in the summer breaks with my family. When it was mentioned, the song Cabron by the RHCP started to play in my head. Memories of last summer (and some summers a couple of years ago) popped up in my head.
Later today I was listening some P!ATD songs. My mind went back instantly to spring last year. Their concert, the Trier-trip, the hospital. But also the temperature. Walking in a t-shirt trough Utrecht, trying to find that club. All those Vans (and fans ×_×). Than the train to and trough Germany, the hotel(room) we stayed at, Keulen. After that the smell of the hospital, the great taste of the food served there (horrible ×_×), the crazy nightmare I had the night I had to go there. Crazy. The p!atd songs are a few of the songs with most memory linked to them for me. I also have more memories linked to the p!atd concert than to most others concerts..
We went to visit my aunt and uncle today as well. There is one point on the highway that always reminds me of the 2e klassekamp to heino terugreis. I always hear that song Holiday In Spain( Blof & Counting Crows) and see the inside of that bus when we pass that place...
iTunes shuffle played The Future Freaks Me Out + Sugar We're GoingDown . Oct/Nov/Dec 2005. I had just downloaded new songs (those two mainly) and had no clue how the FOB and MCS guys looked like. We were discussing bands in the Bio-room, at one point. I still remember that random moment of walking to my seat thinking about FOB+MCS.
Also today I was listening to Gorillaz stuff. Man, the London-trip all over again. That huge store where I bought that CD, the bookstore next to the MacD where I bought the HP part 3, those musea we had to visit, the tube...
I got a tune stuck in my head at one point today. A bit vague, don't even know what song anymore, but it was a "dancesong". I think something they played at the THIMUN party or so. Ofcourse memories of the thimun party came to mind. They turned into memories of the HMUN party, which I preferred I guess (yes, good memories). If I try and think about it, I can't remember what songs they played at those parties (ok no, I remember stuff the band played. It's the stuff those DJ's played I can't remember).

The whole day I had such memories about the most random stuff. Kinda weird. Also what was remarkable was that no song was linked to a feeling of regret or anger or any other unhappy emotion. (ok the hospital wasn't exactly fun, and p!atdconcert was rahter regretable nadehand gezien, but still).
Another question for y'all. If there was one song, you should be remembered by what would it be? Which song would you want ppl to think about you everytime they hear it? I might know one such song, but I aint saying it before I got some replies.

that's it. I'll propably stop posting so often, I have stuff to do. Oh joy hw =( .

love,
Stéphanie

2 songs. I just love the 1st one, dunno why. 2nd one= MCS song, always nice.

Sketchdump

I said I was going to draw... Random sketches, pencil + photoshop.

Ok, I've got a question for y'all. What is the most romantic song you've ever heard? Just wondering... I couldn't really think of 1 =S..

-Stéphanie

Snakes On A Plane (Shit Happens)

my day
The plans for this weekend were cancelled =/. I'm kinda bummed out by it. C'est la vie or "snakes on plane" as some say (they really do, check this: Urban Dictionary). After watching tv for a while and doing absolutely nothing, I noticed I really was wasting time. I decided to clean my room (which was/is really needed, you can ask the stroopwafel to confirm this if u don't believe me), because I didn't feel like making my hw.

no, no, no, no emo (think black eyed peace song, nonono drama)
So, I could have got all emo again while cleaning my room. I decided not to. Mainly because I believe one person should not be able to get me down. It's not easy (or should not be) to get the spacemonkey down, she'll stand up and... and... draw. I feel like drawing, sketching or maybe even painting again. I'm probably gonna do that when I finished this post ~_~ =).
While cleaning my room I didn't put on my iTunes. No, it was way to emo I guess for the moment. Nope, I listened to.... Nelly Fortado ×_× XD. Well, Nelly Fortado ft. Timbaland actually. And Timberlake... I like the beat in those songs. You can dance like crazy on that stuff while cleaning your room. I probably looked like an idiot, but it was fun to do. It made me happy (how messed up am I??). But when I was cleaning my room and dancing like an idiot, I got the time to think.

stuff in my mind (a rather short version of it)
I have changed this year (or am changing as the schoolyear hasn't ended yet, neither has the changing). I got some new experiences, ideas and interests. For a few years now I'm intentionally watching my ego (my characteristics, future, past, choices, actions, all stuff like that). I got the feeling a sort of haze or fog is surrounding my brain, slowly vanishing and dissolving. I know a lot of the fog has already gone, but I'm sure there is still some fog left. I can not make this fog perish intentionally, it has to vanish on it's own.
With some fog gone now, it became clear to me stuff is often overrated or exaggerated by ppl who are just rather bored themselves and need/want attention. Everyone wants attention, another revelation I got this past year. Several things like that have become clear to me, but maybe even the most important one hit me right in the face. Somebody said to me what do you care about the others? Isn't it all about you? Your life, do what you want. I'm still grateful he said that to me.
Something I thought about this past week is guys (no not in a dirty way) and parties. Stroopwafel, I don't think you should go all crazy next MUN party, unless you want to. Do stuff when you want to. Take your time if you need time (this isn't only directed at la stroopwafel). I believe sweet sixteen and never been kissed is something bullshitious. Same goes for 16 and never been drunk. I don't feel I need to get drunk right now or anytime soon. I have no need to prove myself or anything. I believe peer pressure can be a very stupid thing. Do what you want, think about your actions before making them and be yourself. I think this goes for all thing in life, not only guys and parties.
Another thing I've been thinking about is, what makes me me? Who am I? (yeah I know Lapptop Wijsbegeerte ding). What makes me better or different from others? Am I satisfied with who I am? Can I change me? (honey seasons change, but people don't (8)) Do I really make the right choices in my life? Ain't I really messing up without noticing? Oh, the self-doubt ~_~.

happy easter everyone
Most of you know who know me pretty good, know how I feel about religion. Ofcourse I know easter is about the death and resurrection of Jesus (my parents raised me pretty good in dat opzicht, they told me the stories and let me free to believe what I wanted). What interests me is where did the paashaas hop into the story? Bellz (the emo-deviantart guy) has an his own version of it. Go check his easter deviation (do read the story in artist's comment).
But seriously, the easter bunny must have some story/origin. So I wiki-ed it. Like most christian feestdagen is easter on an older important date thingy (mn taalgebruik is egt geweldig XD :P) : the Vernal Equinox. Hares and eggs are symbols of the fertility the spring brings again (guess why hares and eggs =P). There is also a story about a chicken (a pretty bad chicken I guess ;) ) hiding her eggs. She got turned into a hare by the goddess Eostre (or Venus/ Aphrodite/ Astarte/ Freya/ Ostare), to go search for the eggs again. It seems quite logic (to me) we get 2 free days because the hare and eggs symbolize the returning fertility in springtime =P (I'm not trying to offend anybody, so don't be). My easter problem (omg, I don't get the easter-feeling this year :P. nah j/k) is solved. I might post an "alternative reason" for our free days from now on on my blog. It kinda interests me. Sad bunny pic. I couldn't do the emo rabbit, it was cutting wrists which is too emo for this post.



Ok this post is now long enough. props @ those who read the whole thing. I sure as hell couldnt with my 2 sec concentration =P. ( just reread it, t valt best mee)



Love,
-St. Freddie (XD j/k. no one is gonna call me that, aight?)


ps. the songs :
» hellogoodbye- call n return (say that your into me) . I just sorta started listening to them, they've got a couple of ok songs.
» Nelly Furtado + Timbaland + Timberlake - Give it to me. I like this song. It's danceable XD =P
» Nelly Furtado+ Timbaland - Promiscous. Told ya I listened to Nelly Furtado this afternoon.

pps. The Snow Patrol song "Chasing Cars" is so.. sad yet beautiful (or it kinda made me sad, it's not that sad at all). I didn't like it first, but when I saw it today at TMF... oh boy, I loved it.

I got sunshine, in a bag

Walking back from Lipsius (that’s how it’s called right?) to Leiden CS, the sun was shining, the streets were quite busy with people who started enjoying the long weekend and I felt happy. I’m happy. Wow, what happened to my emoness? It probably got overruled by the happiness caused by meeting new ppl, making new friends, the attention I got and the 2 extra free days this weekend.
After what was a period of shitty grades, not feeling well and a big lack of sleep (still have to get way more sleep) I’m actually feeling quite happy. A couple of weeks ago I had the idea not to go to HMUN. Boy, am I glad I did go. Though it (again) reduced my hours of sleep I got that week, it was great to have something else on my mind. I’m enjoying Lapptop so much for the same reason (ok, there are other reasons as well).

Ok about today. We watched a movie called Brazil today at Lapptop. Which reminds me, I asked Benin’s email adress (and his real name XD), or actually I gave mine to him. Brazil/Benin thing = inside joke, don’t try to get, unless your dying to know. Just ask me in that case, I’m too lazy to explain right now.
In the movie they had this music thing going on. Every time something important/exciting/big happened this tune started to play (you probably know it, such a Brazilian thing). It was actually quite funny when the guy kissed the girl in the story. He was all hesitating and stuff, they finally slowly kissed each other *silence *... and WHAM music started to play and they started to really make out. I though that was so funny, certainly door die muziek die in een keer begint te spelen. That tune will probably start playing in my head the next time something good happens to me (I’m not saying that I might have or might not have plans to kiss a guy in the near future).

Looking forward to (the future (8)) this weekend. I have plans ~_~ =D. And not only plans to sleep a lot that is… And I totally agree with Mr. Cool. You gotta have loads of allstars. Too bad I don’t have a hellovalot of money.

I kept this post really short, and to be able to enjoy my weekend, I’ll go to bed, right now.

Slaapse,
(viva) la spacemonkey

ps. the title comes from the song I'm listening atm, a Gorillaz.

pps. 2 Gorillaz songs this time. I love the Dracula song, it reminds me of London.

Besides, we've got such good fashion sense

Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentleman.

Well, HMUN was fun. Though it ended rather chaotic in our committee. Throwing paper and stuff.. One of the best notes I got this conference said: "Would you married mie? -xxx-". It was written in such a girly hadwriting Oo. Kinda greek or non? But anyway, way would I wanna marry a pasta (and mie? ramen is way cooler ;) ) =P. The reaction of Madagascar (sitting the row behind me) was something like: "Oh nice, you got a marriage proposal and I got several (death)threats". Yeah, he got hatemail ^^. He made too much amendments and by doing this he annoyed several other delegates.
I think we didn't had a great committee qua work we've done. Certainly after Thimun it was a bit lage qualiteit qua stuff die we deden. We had amendments to the 3rd/4rd degree at some point, which can be kinda confusing. En geen vaste debate time :S. Srry for the dunglish. I had unfortunally missed the first day (lobbying), but I've met some nice ppl. I loved the delegate of Chad, he was so funny. There were mainly dutch and american ppl in our committee from what I know (not sure who was and who wasnt american of the buitenlanders). I've seen some ppl from other conferences as well. A guy from my LeMUN committee. That was such a great conference, I loved our committee there.

"THIMUN has changed my life" was a great quote of today, which brings us to our next subject: the more interesting part of the weekend, the party.
The party was fun. I liked the band. The first DJ was ok, the 2nd wasn't great. A funny thing someone said today was "what if every (outside/not from our school)chair coming to demun would make out with a RLW'er (someone from our school)? What a reputation we would get than =P." Thinking about it, every mun party at least someone(or several ppl actually) from my school's delegation "scored" to use that great word. Leaves me wondering, would other schools be euh as "active at the parties" as our school? At the HMUN party I didnt "score" as i didn't make out with someone, just danced. It was fun anyway, but so hot, leaving everyone quite sweaty.
My boy (to use the title), ok no the guy I met/danced with, was actually quite nice. I'd say he's a gentleman. No hands flying to my butt or anything. Unlike an other couple =P. Anyway, I enjoyed dancing with "the boy". At one point I thought though: "If I would have drunk some more alcohol tonight, I would be making out right now". Yay! I'm not joining that habit, I'm not getting drunk/making out at every party. I'm so proud of my self XD, cause u know, I could do that as well, trust me. I heard the Greeks cheated on eachother, at the same party. I think the greekness was quite funny and I wanna have all the pictures everyone made this weekend (ok no, not the ones of committees or boring stuff with ppl I don't know). One more party-ish thing: Isn't not knowing what the other thinks about you the worst feeling ever?(aight there can be worse feelings I know. but you get the point, its pretty annoying not knowing what someone thinks of u when you actually really wanna know, it can be so confusing -__-) Ok, enough party stuff.

Oeh, I met the blonde turk! He's a friend of Emilie (my sis) and he was so nice. I loved how he tried to speak dutch XD. It was not that bad actually. Thinking about him (he's one of em's TYA buddies), I discovered I'm 10 day to young to join the TYA this summer :/. Pretty lame, non?

This is it. I'm done. Here ends the shitty post. Most post will be/are shitty. Cause I'm no good with words.


Love,
de ruimteaap.


ps. shall I do a picture dump and dedicate 1 post to FOBconcert pics?
pps. I love the lost prophets song ~_~ "It won't help me but I have to ask,Is there something real that's behind the mask?"
ppps: JK is really just a joke...