13. XO

13. XO

I comb the crowd and pick you out
My mouth moves too fast for you to figure it out
It starts eyes closed to fingers crossed
"To I swear, I say"
"To I swear, I say"

Fall Out Boy was awesome. I thought the 2nd concert would be less amazing than the 1st. The 2nd Ok Go was a bit disappointing after the 1st, we've had seen it all before sorta. But Fall Out Boy didnt disappoint. Listening to (their) music on your pc or stereothingy in your room is something completely different from hearing it life, with an amount of decibel that just can't be right for your ears ^^.

At their first concert, even though I didn't even know who Dirty was or what Clandestine Industries was, I had a sort of fixed image or idea how the concert was going to be. The craziest thing was that it actually came true. Hurley doing the drumstick trick @ Sugar were going down, Wentz hanging upside down @ Saturday, and several more things like that.
This time , 2nd concert, I had ofcourse an idea what to expect, I had seen it before. Yet there wasn't a fixed image like the last time, this time it was just a sort of recognition of what they were doing. But it was still all there, and they rocked again.

They started with Our Lawyer Made Us Change The Name Of This Song So We Wouldn't Get Sued again. Great song to start with (well they actually started with the Kanye West remix of This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race, but they didn't play that life). The 2nd song was a Take This To Your Grave track again. Not Homesick At Spacecamp, but The Patron Saint Of Liars And Fakes this time. They played songs from TTTYG, FUTC, en IOH. They played only about 5 Infinity on High songs, not even Carpal Tunnel Of Love or Hum Hallelujah. This time they played XO, which was awesome. Too bad they didn't play The Music Or The Misery as well.
Ofcourse Wentz was doing the talking. Their favourite swearword is apparently GODDAMN. Patrick played "Closing the Goddamn door" (only that line), and Pete told everyone to say goddamn. When he did that, he was looking up and a though occurred to me. If Wentz is going to get struck by lightning anytime soon, it's kinda like "you asked for it".

Shit I loved they did + I expected them to do:

• Hurley doing the drumstick trick during Sugar Were Going Down
• Wentz spinning around
• Trohmania jumping and flinging his guitar around
• Stump wearing a (baseball) cap
• Dirty Dancing / Dirty Dance Dancing
• Korean Tom Cruise guy catching the bass Wentz threw into the air, so he could play the last part of Saturday when Pete had to go singing/screaming (or at least I think it was him)

There was more stuff like that, knowing every song, Frohman having his hair like that, Wentz walking in a hoody/sweater thing (idiot, it was fokking warm), etc etc . Too bad Pete could hang upside down during saturday, there was nothing to climb on/hang upside down on ×_×

I want to see the Max (the Melkweg, Amsterdam). It's over a year that I've been there, though I've seen the Oude Zaal a bizillion times. I must say I like the 013 -zaal. It was big, and had a sort of slope in it. Besides I like the name ("buttocksbuttocks" for eveyone who gets that ;P). We played Hearts on the train to Tilburg. It was funny, I was the first tot get 101 points, while the others didn't even make the 50 points (for every one who doesn't know the game, this means I lost big time). But hey, it was the first time I played the game. Besides I introduced the term "boompje 2" (2 of clubs) and established the use of the name "the evil card" for the Queen of Spades (Sasha came up with that name, I used it cause I got the "Evil Card" almost every game =/).
There were some guys from our school @ the concert as well. During the support act Nailpin (who werent as pop-ish as I thought they would be, they were quite good actually) I looked down at the crowd ( we were on the balcony during the support act and went down to the floor during the recess thingy). The moshpit was made out of the guys from our school+some other random emo's/ moshers. I think they (the guys from our school) actually started the mosh, cause when I looked down before they were there, the moshpit wasn't very active at all.
Also when I looked over at the crowd/moshpit during FOB playing (we were near the stage/speakers on the side/moshpit) I saw a guy crowdsurfing passing us nearby. It was so funny to see it was one of my classmates XD.

We discussed other concerts/bands afterwards. I must say, though Green Day opened up the world of rockmusic and concerts for me, Fall Out Boy is my favourite band. Their 2 concerts were best so far. Here is the list so far:

2005

• Green Day, Jimmy Eat World - I had no clue what music was, too bad.

2006

• Fall Out Boy, My Sister Harold - I <3>
• Panic! At The Disco, Clueless - I almost liked the support act better. No wait I did like the support act better.
• Haags Onbekend Talent Festival - hey it was for free :P
• Parkpop '06 - Seen the Kooks there. Brilliant, in the rain. For free as well.
• Motion City Soundtrack, Ok Go, The Hard Lessons - Great that they traveled with 3 (american) bands.
• My Chemical Romance, Skip The Rush - Friday 13th, in an old church, MCR. Awesome no? Less awesome was that they played loads of songs of their new album which no one had heard before.
• Disco Ensemble, San Andreas - 3 man moshpit! XD. one of the worst support acts.

2007

• Ok Go, The Girls - Seen Ok Go before, still great show but nothing new/exciting. Support act was great though, wish I'd bought their CD.
• Fall Out Boy, Nailpin - <3>

We missed The Killers (several times), We Are Scientists, Lost Prophets, Artic Monkeys and some more great bands. But there are still concerts comming up. You know what would be great? If The Academy Is..., The Gym Class Heroes, The Hush Sound, Cobra Starship & October Fall did a Fueled By Ramen Tour through Europe. Or if Bowling for Soup would finally come to NL ×_×. But I shouldn't complain. At least great bands come to NL, it's not as if I live in let's say Israel or something =P.
I ordered SANTI btw. I want the newest Lost Prophets CD as well, Liberation Transmission. I love Can't Catch Tomorrow (Good Shoes Won't Save You This Time). Oh well.

I think this post is long enough now. Goin to listen to some music, watch some MCR vids (found an old one with vampires? =S + newest one with very emo Gerard Way), make some drawings maybe. Anyway, this is it for today.

Love,
La SpaceMonkey

ps. I can't help it's mostly pete wentz pictures, I didn't make the photo's...

The first 7 pictures are from their concert on 4 feb last year in the Melkweg. I accidentally uploaded in reversed order.

Lack of sleep = Amnesia + Mixing things up

FOB tomorrow, woot! I need sleep -_-

*the part about my school day*

I had about 6-7 hours of sleep last nigth, like most nights nowadays (or nowanights? =S). I must say, I think I need to get more sleep. This morning I had to be up at 7:15-7:30 again, which of course I failed too. Being awake at 7:50 I had to rush and with my sleepy head I packed the wrong books for the day, and forgot all sorts of things. I didnt forget my paack of cards.. best game played in a long time during studieles. Oh, the greekness XD. I got some grades back of the testweek btw, they're pretty bad. I'm slighty worried =\.

*the part in which I go all girly*

I went to 't dorp with mom, sis, little bro et little bro's friend. We got icecreams and little bro wanted me to go to the "skateshop" with him. I was like WTF there is a skateshop in our town? Apperantly there is. He (le little bro) wanted new shoes, so we went with him to the shop. I bought something as well. Here is the girly part: I bought a pink (shoulder) bag. *squeal* I think it's actually a quite cool bag. You can turn it inside out and so the model changes into a (rahter large) handbag. Awesome-o. I showed la sis and she said I was squealing (she was on the phone with a friend at the time) XD. Actually I said "squeal" (letterlijk, niet in noise form) cause she always goes squealing about stuff like that. I just tried to communicate, no worries about me turning into a squealing hugging chick =P.But the bag is cool. And pink ~_~ =D.

*the part which has random stuff*

The drawings are random sketches, and as always I'm not satisfied with the results. I discovered I love markers. I think I want to try to work more with black markers/ink. The first drawing was made at school outta pure boredom. Though I don't like the lines, forms and porportions of the drawing of the girl, I like the use of black/white. The 6:00 one is a try out to see if I can draw an alarm clock (which I obviously can not) and to see if charcoal with water works with a scanner ( sadly I used the wrong paper and the paper got all messy and bobbly).

Ok lots to do, so this will be the end of my great blog update.
One more thing for those who understand: the greek/italien joke is damn funny. See, our use of the work "grieks" isn't completely made up!

Love,
la space-monkey

ps. ain't my english just great? ( i got teh feeling i made some seriously fucked up sentences in this post)

SANTI/thnks fr th mmrs





As soon as I can get the thnks fr th mmrs vid on youtube, I'll post it here. Notice the mobile btw, FOB uses them as well in their vid(s)...
The wentz part of the vid comes from thnks fr th mmrs which you really should try to find on internet, I love it! Ugh, I got too little money, I wanna buy Santi, The Science of Sleep, and concert tickets.. -_-

I'm friggin cursed. I got hit by a hockey ball again this match. 4 times! so painfull.

Thnks fr th mmrs => I love monkeys. The main reason for that is the gorillaz, but this vid helps as well. I love the light, kleding and hair (XD XP) in the thnk fr th mmrs vid. awesome.
We've Got A Big Mess On Our Hands => gotta love bill beckett. there "sound" has changed.. can't wait to get their new CD ! "Today I looked in the mirrow and the guy I saw aint me." "Yeah, that happends to me all the time" TAI has a new gitarist (well not very new anymore, but whatevr). Why the hell won't they come to NL???

There’s a place so dark you can’t see the end

Clouds surround the moon, the stars shine not very bright. Sitting on my bike, I ride down a small path. In front of me I can see nothing but complete darkness. Nothing but a black spot, that moves foward as I move down the path. Near and next to me I am able to see the vague forms of a hedge and a fence. Having cycled and walked down this path so many times, I exactly know when to stop in order to prevent a collision with a tiny gate halfway through the path. I jump of my bike to open the by tree's surrounded gate. When try to open the gate, which is not higher than my shoulders, I look back over my shoulder. A red light, comming from the back of my bike, shines on it's surroundings, turning everything red. When I finally manage to open the gate, I rush trough it. Pushing my bike fowards, I walk through a garden. The back of a house and a small parch of gras on my left side, a somewhat bigger and more open parch of grass on my right side. Suddenly I got scared. Imagening someone jumping up from behind the trees next to the gate and hitting me or something like that. With my bike in my hand I rush to the next gate, out of that backyard into the next. There are some lights in this one, making me feel a bit saver, but yet I keep this hunted feeling. When I got out of that garden back on the path again, almost in my own back yard, I realize there is nothing to be afraid of. I get to the end of the path, to our little shed to put my bike away, and I see the garden that lays behind our own backyard. I see the bushes that mark the end of our backyard near to me and behind and next to that again nothing but darkness. I got the feeling a great monster could jump out of it any moment. A big hairy... werewolf. As fast as I could I put the light on in the shed. I put my bike away and wait a second. The light brings me comfort again. Now I have to cross our backyard to get to the house, which is quite dark as there are no lights on inside. I run across the grass, up on to the patio. The backdoor is locked of course and rapidly I try to find the right key. Standing there I got the feeling any sniper could hit me in my neck very easy. Sniper? Where the hell could he sit? Right on the shed of our neighbours, or in that tree there. When I finally open the door, I run through the dark kitchen, into the light hallway, to the frontdoor. I laugh my as off because of my behavior, but walk back instantly to lock the back door, after checking if my sis is in the living room. Where was I so scared for? A shadow springing up from behind a tree to grab me? A werewolf with a riffle? It's not likely to meet one in my backyard. Yet I got so scared back there.

I got scared in the dark -_-. I thought I was passed that...×_×. Thinking about it, I got scared for a monster under my bed a while ago. How stupid. Am I the only idiot who still gets scared in the dark every once and a while (it's not like everytime it's dark or anything, it doesnt happen very frequently) ??
Linkin Park lyrics title. They have some good lyrics btw...

Sleep lekkah / Love / laterzz / Grtz
da spacemonkey

ps. sorry for the spelling/sentence mistakes, but it's quite late so my brain doesnt work really well.

*edit* Maxime, here is a pic straight outta war declared on scanner :

A bit messy, fucked up drawings, but hey you gotta practice to get perfection. The pencildrawn dude should be bold, and the lock isnt supposed to be there, but as I said before, it's just a practise sheet thing. music: Kawada, Millencolin and SkipTheRush (i love the beginning of that song~_~). for the quiz thing: omg i really am a emo-lite XD

If I die and go to hell real soon,it will appear to me as this room


Wow, hell will be a big mess than.. And no, the this post has nothing to do with the rest of the lyrics of that song =P

So, testweek this week. Why do I have idiotic veel subjects? I'm so going to drop at least one subject next year. I'm really saying this cause I don't wanna study right now..

Some asked me about the (future) story thing. I think I might go and rewrite it. Maybe make it longer, maybe make it shorter, maybe make episodes? Didn't even finished the first drawing for it yet ×_×. I'm still trying to install PS CS, but I have an overvolle schijf -_-. Can't even put cds on it... I'll have to throw away some files, i guess.

Ok now, what is the reality? There are several theories about that. We are not living in the real world, but just a weak recreation (afspiegeling) of it. Yeah, I'm enjoying Lapptop =P. But let's go for the there are several worlds idea. Y'all know what I mean, there are plenty stories about ppl accidentally falling into other parallel worlds. So if there are an infinite amount of worlds, there would be one in perticulair I would be interested in. No this is not a philosophical story, it's about goddamn pasta and mice en other stuff like that.
So let me describe this world for u. In this world Maxime would make out with fat guys, get shot several times and live! Amazing, I know, certainly after teh fat guys XD.
Nienke get's eaten by sharks occasionally, I get hunted by that bear (teh bear actually exists like in this world, it's my plushie bear of 1 m high ^^).
In that world sewage fairies, evil swamp fairies and evil forest fairies fly around. The mice are all grey and have (orange) Japanese Bleech or Black emo hair. My own mouse is so cute it that world ^^. Made it myself for biology - DNA test stuff...
In that world it's against the law to shower alone. Cause, hey, the world(earth =P, no one will get that ~_~) really is your best friend. To save water and energy they made a law that prohibits everyone to shower alone. They have the most fabulous showers. Tiny yet comfortable.
In that world Di Pasta makes or keeps you looking good. Even the overdue pasta. All the well made -food keeps on being great in fact, even the over due stuff.
Ducks get dragged through the slick every once and a while, it's a national tradition of one of the nations. The ducks, however do not mind, in fact they quite enjoy the slick.
In that world, the most populair game is a game similar to risk (nvr played that, but whatvr). But in that world, it's with real small nukes, and real small armies. And everyone has his own nation.
Music is almost sacred in that world. Those who can play music really wel are almost seen as gods. Poetry and other forms of art are sacred there as well.

I could go on infinitely about the miracles of this amazing world, but I gotta get back to earth to study english, to prevent a repetition of today. During Latin I got this song stuck in my head:
"Love lifts us up where we belong(8)"
"Shut up, concentrate on your latin!"
"It's boring:\. Where the eagles fly on a mountain high(8)"
"AAAAAAAAH, what is an ABLABS?"
"shut up, it aint that hard. damned hannibal"
About this too I could go on endlessly. But I really have to study the importance of being ernest now. So, back to earth. English. -____-.

Love,
je spaceaap

ps. lol @ comments last post. how did NSP et JK end up at our blogs eigenlijk?
pps. here is the riff. I love it -_-. Cant wait till 28/3. You gotta admit, trohman and the rest of FOB are awesome XD (Max, that includes dirrrty =P)
ppps. and poppunk is sooooo '05 cause it didnt make it on max's blog :/.

There is a fire in the backyard

Sleepin tiger, I actually like this shot...

We only want to sing you to sleep, In your bedroom speakers, whoa whoa

There's a monkey in the jungle
Watching a vapor trail
Caught up in the conflict
Between his brain and his tail

Not in teh mood to insult someone. But then again, hey we're all monkeys (well deep down inside at least).

Beetje scheef, niet geweldige foto, but who cares? Its a fokking eend in de modder! ~_~

I have no clue why he kept kissing teh metal bar thing.

Such a loner fishie! I love him XD

New photos... shot in Blijdorp, a while ago. Just noticed, the first 3 pics are of sleeping animals :S. I love the spiegelreflex camera =D! Way beter dan mn digitale cam =(

Remember I said a couple of posts ago I was listening to a short track Trohman made? I'm now obsessed with that riff! It's a brilliant ding. It pisses me of that it's only (about) 30 seconds long, though. I've heard it over a bizillion times now, it's not healthy. Trohman shouldn't be able to sleep more often if it results in stuff like that. Then again, he should be able to sleep, so he + the rest of fob can give a great show at the 28th. Damn, I can't wait till the FOBconcert.

Thats it, I have stuff to do so I've kept it short.

Lovez,
your ruimtemonkey, Stéphanie

ps. the next fob vid is going to be thnks fr th mmrs . I like teh song You're Crashing, But You're No Wave better actually, but thanks for th mmrs is great as well...

pps. the title comes from the song that starts with that line. It's the first line on the cd even. I should have listened to max en started to listen to that stuff earlier, they're idd goed. There were Elephants, I shot pics of them, but they turned out, as expected, quite bad.

What else is there?

Title is from the first song that played in winampshuffle. I don't think many of you will know the song, but then again I could be wrong. Maxi-taxi et stroopwafel weten het ckers niet.
Some ppl asked me to update, so here is the post. It's about the past week...

Monday
To hug or not to hug, that's the question. I don't really like hugging, don't really know why. Certain people can hug me at certain times, but other than that I'm not really fond of it. I'm not the type that goes hugging for everything and nothing, and squeals with it -_-. Don't get me wrong, I don't really hate hugs, they just can annoy me and I'm just not a person who would "start" a hug. Am I the only girl who does not like squealling+hugging (I dislike mainly the squealling part)? Some will actually get how this is related to monday, but most of you don't I guess. Only Maxime will really get I think.

Tuesday
I got myself in detention -_-. Echt dodelijk saai (but I have a solution for that in the future XD). Buiten dat was het niet that bad, you could make hw, which you wouldn't have done at home. The bad part was, that my friends didn't get detention. They didn't make their hw as well, but the teachers didn't paid enough attention to them ×_×. Oh and I didn't have my Ipod with me, which sucked.

Wednesday
On wednesday we went to shell with school. Everyone said it was awefully boring, which it was most of the time. The presentations were egt heel saai. When we had to give ours, the kids in the front row did stupid things. One was picking his nose, another guy pretending to cut his wrist, and the others were just making stupid noises/remarks . Very distracting/annoying/gross/triest.
But the day had some fun parts as well. There were several funny conversations. The best was between the new Greeks, although the question "why are you doing you're hair?" to an original greek was pretty funny too. We didn't learn a hellovalot of stuff from shell, but I must say I had to adjust my opion of a couple of kids that day.
Skipped hockey that day. Apparently the trainers got pissed O_o ^^

Thursday
I was in the mediatheek, self-esteem at it's lowest point, when I heard a couple of kids (I think from my year, not entirely sure though) talking. That made me feel so smart ~_~. Not very nice to say, I know.

Friday
I know what a diafragma is =D. Already knew that, but whatever. I decided I really want a digitale spiegelreflex camera.

Saturday
Hockey match. I have a talent for getting hit. Got hit with a ball on my knee. Right under mn knieschijf. Damn pijnlijk... The match before yesterday's my hip started to hurt. The one before that I got a stick on my finger (it got all purple and blue XD). I always seem to get hurt at teh hockey matches :S. It was fokking cold yesterday, btw. I had to play in a shirt, cause I don't have a red trui/vest waarin ik kan hockeyen. Yeah we had to play in red, cause the other team was light blue (we wear grey normally). It was an english team. We played in Voorschoten.. think they were all from the BSN or something.
That night mom,dad & little bro went out to friends or something. Em and I had to cook for ourselves and stuff. Em made it a , dunno how you call it, "girls night". With tv, icecream and stuff like that. At one point took over her Laptop to talk to this random guy in Tilburg. We (teh 3 of us) discussed music. It was fun. At one point he said something like emo is punk for starters. =P we also talked about concerts, and apperently Metallica is coming to NL. Not that I'm goin, I listen more to emo... Anyway, it was a nice evening with Ben&Jerry, some shit Vin Diesel movie and House on Em's laptop.


That's enough for now. Damn I'm hot. Not as in sexyness, but as in I think I have koorts (fever).

Grtz
Stéphanie

I was planning on posting this song before Maxime had posted 15 year old girls on her blog, I swear. And the 2nd song, Polyamorous, was playing after What Else Is There? This is a slightly different version than I have. Ok, im going to listen some other songs of them on Imeem now (cause I have only one song of them). Is there anyone who has heard of Breaking Benjamin before?

*edit*
If you're about 1.75m tall, do not fall asleep on a couch of 1.20m long. Trust me in this, your legs will hurt as hell when you wake up.

15 Year Old Girls

Shit post yesterday, shit post today. One about random stuff in life. Hence the title (also cause I'm listening that song atm). This title could have a post about a shitty mean fight as well, but no its about my random thoughts atm.

I hurt my hip at the hockey match. Must have made a strange move, cause it just started hurting in the middle of the match. My hips never hurt, never did before either so it's kinda freaky. It hurts as hell when I walk now. So, just needed to whine about that, I'll shut up about it now.

Fashion models are so damn skinny cause most of the fashion designers are gay. It's ridiculous that a couple of (mainly gay) man tell women what to wear and how to look.

We actually won our hockey match today. It was fun I guess (the winning and the match). Had een paar mooie bewegingen en 1-2tjes, twas fun. 2 girls had rings they got from their boyfriends, so at one point we were discussing jewelry. I think the best kind of jewelry is the one with a story. One that you get from someone, or that you get on a journey/trip/holiday . Just buying it yourself is kinda broing don't ya think?

I'm loving The Girl's songs ^^. http://myspace.com/thegirlsnl ->sixteen blue and 15 year old girls are my favourite ones.

We're going to get a new bathroom! Probably one with a shower with maybe 2 showerheads. That's just brilliant. Cause then, I would be pwning the Tiny Shower (the shower next to my room). And if I want I could use the 2 showerheaded shower, which must be great, it's like 2 as much water. Apparently the Earth isn't really my best friend :P, lekkah water verspillen. =) "This makes SFO very happy". Not sure we're actually goin to have 2 shower heads, but knowing my dad the chance is pretty big...

I've got photoshop CS from this guy from my class. I still need to get winzip and install all the stuff, but man Im loving this =D. I mean thanks man! (not that he would actually be reading this :/, but still)

I'll shut up now, gotta see if Road Rally is on.

Love,
the ruimteaap.

ps. DE STROOPWAFEL IS TRUG! HOORAY, HOORAY!

This is my head exploding from the weight of the thoughts inside

http://www.ifilm.com/video/2826550

Vincent Price was an actor who played in a lot of thriller movies. Never heard of him before but whatever. Did anyone see this movie before? My god, what an emo kid. Sorry for the subtitles btw, couldn't find a non subtitled version.



<3 Disco Ensemble. they didnt have this is my head exploding -_-. It was this, We Might Fall Apart or Black Euro. I actually wanted This Is My Head Exploding, I love the lyrics of that song.
"This is my head exploding from the weight of the thoughts inside
These are my thoughts escaping through the ventilation-shaft
Though my words weight a ton they can hardly ever come out right
This is an emergency call 'cause my head explodes tonight"



Plain White T's... first song I've heard of them (today that is). I thought it was another song (some dance trance song, or however you wanna lable it), clicked, listened and liked. So..Take Me Away.



Jesus of Suburbia. It has been playing in my head all day. Is everything in life random, or is there a reason for everything?

I won't talk about today. My words will get twisted and misinterpret anyway, it's not worth it. I'll probably quit arguing, it is useless,pointless,stupid and even ridiculous.

I was planning on finishing the drawing and posting the story, I've written a while ago, today. But I got no motivation for it. Fuck it.
I might post a blogpost over shit in my life and my view on my life soon, but I might as well say fuck it to that too. I'm not the one acting victim. I'm not the one you need to feel sorry for, I don't need that. So fuck that.
Damn I wish I could play guitar. I would have played+made noise all afternoon. I've heard this short track of Trohman playing an acoustic guitar. It sounded so awesome. Made me wanna play guitar. But I can't, so fuck that too.

That's all for today. I need to get way more sleep, I'm freezing my butt off & I'm hungry as hell atm, so I'll see if I can get some food and go read Catcher In The Rye or write in my diary (always fun when you think too much) cause I can't sleep now anyway.



Stéphanie.